Dear Journal.....

Last night I attended a musical fireside called DEAR JOURNAL. It was a really good fireside filled with some of my fav church songs (I've Got To Find Out Who I Am and COURAGE) In between musical numbers, they had people get up and read actual journal entries as a teen, before mission, during mission and so on as a young LDS member. It was really deep and moving

Kasandra sitting next to me said "i dont talk about church stuff in my journal" and I nodded and agreed with her jokingly...but it was true! I even joked with another person saying if I went up with my journal, I would spend too much time flipping through the pages tryin to find something that was appropriate to read during a fireside! SMH!

Anyways, amongst other entries, I really enjoyed this one...

It was a poem written by Mz. Liumeitupou Pulotu

TESTIMONY
Every day i ask myself, Why did i wake up today?
My testimony Burns through me
but no one can ever hear it.
He see's me but i Can't see him, Yet i still believe in him.
When things go wrong i never Kneel & question WHY.
I simply walk away hoping i'll find the answer along my way.
You gave me a keystone, I walk past it everyday.
You gave me a book, I never opened it.
Yet my testimony still burns through me
I hate that I can't change the Bad, But i know i can do better.
Members so afraid of whats ahead, Forgetting that there is a Plan.
Living by a book? Na Living for what i believe in.
You left me at an early age so its hard for me to remember you;
You test me here on Earth Im hoping that I'm acing this test everyday.
Testimony your more than words, Your more than a Sunday Afternoon.
Everyday my faith grows & other days my faith leaves me.
Im growing So Please don't Judge me.
Testimony Im relying on you

P.S. Courage is my way of saying I WILL FOLLOW THEE